that old accident just keeps on keeping on

this, ladies and gentlemen, is what a normal shoulder looks like.

mine doesn't look like that. in fact, health professionals call it "very interesting". no one should ever hope to be "very interesting" in the eyes of doctors who have seen everything.

my shoulder droops and pulls on my neck muscles and gives me a helluva back ache. my shoulder droops because it healed really "interestingly". my collar bone sticks up above my shoulder and looks funny. there is some nerve damage, too, which has allowed my once he-man deltoid to resemble that of a 9 year old. and it hurts. a lot.

i hurt. i'm crooked. i look funny. i can't sleep on my side. i'm agry about it.

i want to ride my mountain bike.